What's the Point? (kinda... blabby)

I worry...

A Lot

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But isn't that what most people do? When you’re facing the life ahead of you, how can you not?

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I have decided that worrying ... is an illness! Even when things are going well, I worry… about everything and anything. I don’t know weather it is because I focus too much on how I am not perfect and neither is my life… or if it is just because I take to much time thinking about weather I really am doing things right. I worry about my past… I worry about my future…

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What’s the Point?

There is no point in worrying… Life holds too many secrets… too many surprises… if your worried about each and every one of them there is no possible way that you are going to enjoy any of them. When looking at the future I am excited… I can actually look forwards and even though I don’t know if everything is going to work out… I still know that it doesn’t have to… Because no matter what in the end things will be all right… and even if they aren’t at least I tried my best!

When I worry about my placement coming up in April… I think… what’s the point in worrying? The only thing that will do is make me more nervous and then I will do even worse then I thought I might do. Of course you can be a little worried about these things… but never to the point where you are actually considering dropping out of school so that you don’t have to do it.

When I worry about weather I am meant to be an EA or not I also think… what’s the point? If I don’t try I’ll never know… I am doing better in school then I ever have… it could be because I am not doing as much… but I think it is because I am doing something that I am truly interested in, that’s gotta say something! Besides… life is either too short or too long to worry about those things, if it’s too short then I should just go for it… and if it’s too long then what they hey I can always try something else if it turns out that it’s not the thing for me!

I worry about my relationship… why? I don’t know… I am with this great guy who thinks the world of me… So what he’s not some doctor who makes a ton of money and can support me no matter what! He is still brilliant, loves all the same things as I do, he is a great writer and he truly loves to worship God… what more could I ask for. Sure there are things that get me, sometimes I’m annoyed… but in what relationship aren’t you annoyed at times… if your in one let me know, I want to know what kind of fantasy your living! So he isn’t like the perfect man you see in the movies… but he’s perfect for me… sure the sweet things would be nice… but in reality there isn’t a man like the perfect movie man. My boy suits me… what else matters? Plus if it doesn’t work out then it doesn’t … but I’ve gotta give it a chance!

I worry about being on my own… Do I really need to? Sure I have to be on my own sometime, and that’s fine, why worry about it, it doesn’t have to happen right away. No need huffing and puffing over these things I might blow my life down… (Excuse the pun) …

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I guess what I’m trying to say is… Why Worry?

There are a huge percentage of people out there who are only depressed because they worry too much. When you really think about it… what’s the point?

Life goes on… isn’t that what everyone says? Well… it’s true… life does go on… so you mess up on a paper… life goes on, you can always try harder next time or... maybe it isn’t the course for you… who knows… but life continues. When you do something wrong at work and your boss has to talk to you… life goes on, so you messed up, you learn from that mistake and move on… something I came up with the other day was that "Not everyone can be employee of the month… EVER" no one is perfect… some people may be well suited to their jobs but no one is good at everything… and even if you are in the job that is right for you doesn’t mean your going to be perfect at it.

Live life… don’t worry about it! I know I will be a little more careful of what I’m worrying about from now on… and I hope you will be too!

Noelle

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